I keep having these repeated thoughts of people intentionally harming me. I have them over and over. Many times I tried to suppress them but they returned / repeated so often that it was useless. I've tried challenging them, e.g., that thought was not true; it's just a thought, etc. But they don't stop. I am constantly fighting them. Now, I just let them run their course. I got tired of the battle.

I have been harmed by so many people. They seem to enjoy it. Their mistreatment has ruined my life. I mostly isolate because it's safe and much less stressful. I don't know what else to do. I cannot seem to find acceptance anywhere.