My mental structures crumbled and I am trying to fix it jus am even more aware of it by physical touch or even hugs. Earliest memory parents fighting over taking me and my sister literally ripping us back and forth from the house. I just was burned 3 times by 3 different family members telling me to go f myself for trying to get better stay on meds and working while paying them rent and helping them?! I know I need to have the mental strength and self esteem but I am so distraught and am on 100mg gabapentin 3x a day and jus starting busparone again for laughs bc I don’t think these low doses even help with calming the racing thoughts from every situation I place myself in. I do not accept hugs from my parents from 16 on or appreciate being touched or poked especially with opening up. Feel like the taurus’ with avpd really have it the worst. Any suggestions for meds even for short time to help me be calm and not be so objective to touch/hugs?