The bigger issue being that "maybe" you are feeling sex or your sexuality to be dirty or shameful.

Let me ask you a few questions, to see if we can get closer to the core issue.

1) What are your feelings about sex, without focusing on semen? Describe how you feel about sex without mentioning semen.

2) If body fluids or semen were not involved in sex, then how would you feel about sex?

3) Do you like feeling sexually desired? Or, does this bother you in some way?

4) Do you ever feel aroused by the idea of having sex? Or, do you feel something else?