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nels13245 · Nov 20, 2018 at 07:29 AM

shocked but in awe of how strong you sound, to keep going on and to fight. Very grateful for you to share your story, THANK YOU.

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Originally Posted by raging vortex

back in 2005,

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I came very close to death. I attempted on my life, and ended up in the hospital for a very long time

well, during that time, the nurses and doctors under my care didn't think I'd make it- and called a priest in to the hospital to read me the last rights

it was a scary situation to be in, it was christmas eve, my parents had refused to come and see me- I had no friends to see me, I had verry little to live for- and my body was shutting down really fast- faster than they had imagined

it was a long night of people by my bedside getting me to breav and to talk to them and to just move slightly so they knew I was alive

I'm not sure how, but I survived that- after I was released from the hospital, I was still ill- and had to be cared for a lot by nurses for a few months (but at home), as I was still a real risk to myself, but begged to go home.

I lost my parents, my education, a lot of things- but I held on to my life.

since then I've attempted 4 more times- 2011, 2013, 2016 and 2017, but that could have been it back in 2005, and I'm sort of glad it wasn't

yeah I've lost a lot of important things that probably would have helped me, but I have the most important thing.. and that's my life