I have always dealt with depression but have been twice hospitalised it was so bad that I had suicide ideation. I never really recovered after the first hospitalization and after about three years of the battle once again worsening I found myself again hospitalised for nearly eight weeks.
I received a course of six ECT treatments and I credit this with literally yanking me out of the depths. It was as though the fog lifted or curtains rising as the funk near disappeared.
Warning, this is a difficult trigger...
That was three years ago. Sure I have my down days still but I am able to find joy in things again. I am capable of feeling happiness. I am capable of recognising and celebrating the good things in life.