I totally feel you on this! ... ... I used to believe, but that all went down the toilet when I realized the message pretty much was that there's an all powerful entity that could change the course of evil and suffering - especially that of helpless, innocent children - but chooses not to ... What kind of sick effer is that?

It also irks the hell out of me when people try to talk to me about "free will" ...

It may have been my parents and siblings free will to torment and abuse the hell out of me on a daily basis, but it certainly wasn't mine ... And, being totally powerless in that sick family's dynamic and to not have an all powerful god rescue me? ... Then to also expect me to "forgive" them for all the evil @#$%! they did to me? ... Um, yeah ... Eff That Too!