So, I do everything I can not to stay closed in myself thinking and thinking. But there are some problems they will not solve in a moment....as:
- today I have not a home of mine; I'm living with my parents, it is 6 months, waiting for my home to be ready;
- I moved from a big town to a small one, because of economic issues. Here it is not so easy to have new friends and to date new people. Not so easy.
- my old friends, they have families and babies, and they are not so free to stay with me.
- I'm really busy with my job.

But...I will recover, maybe.
But I'm divided, as if there coud be 2 me.
One trying to swim and swim and swim, always smiling and fair with everyone, but grasping to not go down under the water, and die.
And another one that looks at me in a few years old and alone, with a cat and anything else. My life spent without significance.

I don't know, I feel like a crazy fly when cold start, they go around and around and they die, finally.