I have been off the omniprozol for some time now. I am definitely able to handle beer better. I still am going to quit. I can never tell when I am going to wack-out now. Two times I will be alright and then boom I get crazy. I have been banned from one of the pubs. It is only a matter of time before I am banned from the other.

I have a ton of built up anger and frustration. That is from years of being in the mental health system and having mental health professionals totally ignore me when I tell them that I have a dissociative disorder. Some times I think people are messing with me. That is when I get paranoid. It is no use I just am too mental to risk being in a bar.

I have got to learn how to deal with the boredom in some positive manner. I do not want to get kicked out of this facility.