What you do is rebuild yourself and your own dreams again..... step by step, inch by inch, and when you're ready. Your future fell apart with a man who tried to destroy you. I am glad you are out of that relationship! Now it's time to focus on you, what you want and what you need in life to be happy. If you're living with your parents, then a good goal would be to save enough money to be living on your own again. Step by step...