Due to my self-injury and inability to get "better" and improve in my illnesses and destructive behavior, my therapist is "firing" me. He does not want to see me anymore, because he is not sure he is helping me. If I did not have him in my life, I would be dead. I don't know what to do. Due to my childhood trauma and BPD, I have an intense fear of abandonment. This only feeds the hunger of my fear of abandonment, and I feel if he leaves me, I will do something extremely self destructive, and may even go as far as killing myself. I do not want to blame him, so it will be my fault if I kill myself. I really don't want to lose him. Anyone have any advice?