((JoeS21)),

I am sorry that you struggled so long and failed to be told about a medication that could have helped you. Please understand that even though it seems like others had an advantage because they took drugs to help them, a lot of this was their own experimenting and not so much through a doctor's assistance. They have been learning and know more "now" then even ten years ago so even though you feel cheated and angry, the help you needed just wasn't there before like it is now.

It's ok to be angry and even grieve what you feel you lost because you did not get to have this medication to help you. I can assure you though that you are not the only one that failed to get help due to genuine lack of knowledge. The important thing NOW is to take this medication and keep trying to pursue a goal for yourself. Honestly, a lot of people don't really find their nich in life until they are close to 40 years old. Actually, even individuals that do well scholastically don't necessary find their nich in life like you think they do. Actually people choose a field and end up hating the field they choose and end up actually changing completely around age 40.