I'm so sorry you're struggling, DazedandConfused254 I can relate to your struggles. I often get paranoid when it comes to text messages as well. Try to give yourself some time limit before trying again (like maybe three days). It also seems like this may be caused by some self-esteem issues you have. Do you think that may be correct? Perhaps you need to work on that. Maybe buy some books on the subjects. Do you see a therapist? I'm sorry you have to deal with this