Been examining my thoughts related to food today. I realize that I think I shouldn't eat or eat very little or if do I feel doubtful about myself. Why don't I have the right to eat? I have been called names for being overweight. Those thoughts haunt me. Why should I care what mean people say anyways?! I have been called "pig", "cow", "fat *****", and then there were the names my siblings called me when I was just a bit chubby as a near teenager. I don't think anyone should be made fun of for how they look. There was a time when women were rubenesque and it was thought to be a good thing. They were called voluptuous. There were great paintings done of them that were famous. Well, those are my thoughts today.

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