You are not alone. I wish I could comfort you.

I have trauma, sexual trauma, and bullying related PTSD. Accompanying this is my bipolar and regular bouts of severe depression. Part of the depression is related to my attachment to the past. I ruminate a great deal. This only makes the depression worse - and I in turn feel a failure for letting it get the better of me. Ugh! One thing that helps is to stay away from writing about it, journalling in particular. Just writing this now has placed me in a funk. Yes,we need to avoid situations that trigger this.