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Originally Posted by Aimless Soul
Some people of my age are running countries, and here I am feeling hopeless. People who are younger have stronger personalities, more confidence, and have achieved more than me in life, while I am sitting here broken and defeated. It's humiliating. I feel I have grown physically only, but inside me there is a child who hasn't grown, who is weak and fragile. If people know how old I am, and know the things I am talking about here, they will probably laugh at me and look at me with contempt. I myself feel embarrassed and lose my self-respect when I talk about how I feel here, even when I am anonymous and know no one. We men are not supposed to talk about how we feel. We must not complain. This is how we are taught directly and indirectly.
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If my age were to bring someone else to laugher, then so be it. Who am I to stop them? Yes, other people's judgments can feel humiliating, but humility is a humble quality that many find respectable. Often it is that child in the other (the laughing other) who is weak and fragile. Like in the TV Drama series "Lost", there are many who have been stranded on the island with respectable careers (police, businessmen, doctor), who end up stranded just the same as everyone else. Learning how to use the tools that life gives us, is how we project and own ourselves, while gaining confidence and direction.