I’ve never been diagnosed with a dissociative disorder, but twice this week I’ve had these bizzare episodes of dissociation. Or maybe it was depersonalization. Or something else I’m not aware of.

I had a very bad therapy session on Thursday. And when I realized my mistake, I could feel myself leave my body. It was something I had not expierenced before. Then today at work I was starting to have an anxiety attack, which I never have. I was trying to navagate my way out work, and I just felt really weird. Like I wasn’t in the right body. I felt like maybe I hadn’t pulled my pants up after using the bathroom, or I was wearing someone else’s coat. The sun felt much more brighter then usual.

I’ve been under a lot of stress with work and therapy and the anniversary of my dads death was a few days ago, but these episodes of dissociation are just bizzare and not like me at all.