Hello stan: Thanks for sharing this concern here on PC. I'm sorry I don't think there is much of anything I can offer with regard to what you've experienced. Hopefully other members may have some thoughts they can share. (I sincerely doubt that you are a "freak of nature".) I see this is your first post here on PC though. So... welcome to PsychCentral.

The mens' forum was an appropriate place to post this I would think. The only drawback might be that the mens' forum doesn't seem to see a lot of activity. The other forum that might be appropriate to this topic would be the Other Mental Health Discussion forum since it is for the discussion of "personal mental health issues that don't fit into a specific mental health topic." Here's a link to that forum:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/othe...th-discussion/

The other thing you might consider doing is to introduce yourself to the general membership over on the new member introductions forum:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/new-...introductions/

One way of approaching this might be to take some of the quizzes & tests that are on offer here on PC. Here's a link to the listing of quizzes & tests that are available:

Psychological Quizzes and Tests

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.