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Originally Posted by stan1775
When I was 12, I had a specific moment where I emotionally changed in a split second. I quit feeling love the way I had previously. I don't get overtly angry. I tend to be more intellectual than emotional. I don't think its depression. I don't feel sad at all and never have outside of a few moments. I just don't feel emotions they way others do. I can relate to others emotions based on how I think they should feel.
I don't know where to post this in the forums... I am not bipolar, depressed, etc.. The way this started was weird... it happened when i was cutting the grass at 12 years old. nothing horrible was going on and I don't have tramatic experiences. Possibly a physical issue? I haven't talked about this over the years much because I tend to get thrown in the depressed category.
Thoughts? Am I just a freak of nature who has very shallow emotions?
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You sound very much like me, so I hope we're not freaks of nature. I didn't realize I was that way as young as you did, but back when I was in college, I would think, "When so-and-so dies, I'm sure I'll cry." But they would die, and I wouldn't shed a tear, even in the case of my parents, 11 years ago in the case of my father, and a few months ago in the case of my mother.
As a librarian, I was a cataloger, and as part of my work I came across works by John Elder Robison, Augusten Burroughs, and eventually Temple Grandin. Eventually I realized that the Asperger's Syndrome that they described fit me to a tee and helped me understand many things about my growing up that I had never considered. Since I'm not a health care professional and have not even been clinically diagnosed as Aspergian, I can't say that that's why you don't feel emotions. But if you haven't considered it before, take some of the quizzes on PC and see if you don't have some "aha" moments that might help you understand your lack of emotions.