He kept asking me to tell him I love him and I couldn't do it because he wouldn't see me. Now he's been gone for 27 days and I am a mess. I've realized I've been profoundly depressed. My brother's mother in law offered to give us a free couples counseling class but he turned his phone off so I can't tell him and he's not responding to any of my emails. I didn't know I was so deeply depressed. I don't know what to do. I want to apologize to him, tell him I love him, I'm in love with him, I need him, I want him, but I can't because I can't reach him.