I guess I'd find it relevant, in your shoes, to hear what she said when you discussed it with her (or when you discuss it with her, which I think makes sense to do before you make any decision). If her *present* position is that-- though I'm not sure precisely what it means-- that would inform my decisionmaking.

So your behavior or your unwillingness to stop harming yourself may cause her to end therapy even if it is your choice to continue. Is this the issue? Do you want to put off the decision on her or do you want to create a situation where she will be forced to "abandon" you? I'm sure there are a number of scenarios possible, although I understand that going to therapy with the insistence that you won't change is helpful to you. I think you "deserve" therapy under these circumstances, and I hope you can continue going as long as you want to.