I can relate. I think I've said the same thing just in more of an indirect way, but it's more the feeling of wanting to die hasn't been around since before summer. But now that it's gone, I'm lost AND still feel crappy about my life. Like I never had a 5 year plan, or any real plan because I didn't expect to live this long. The times I said something similar, I'm glad my therapist didn't bother with some cliche saying.
There's not much that keeps me going, but now I don't have the urge to kill myself either so I'm just floating in nothingness.