It's so insanely hard. I keep wondering when my next session is and keep regretting things I didn't say or ask him. I told him I loved him on Monday and in text on Thur but not when we hugged goodbye Thurs, what a jerk i am.

2 years is so long, what a cruel thing to do to people. I can't see his face or hear his laugh or have any hope of contact for 24 months. Sigh....