You focus on words a lot. You’d be better off if you look into people’s actions. This guy says a lot of things. His actions speak otherwise. Your standards in men are rather low. If you keep standards low, you’ll have low quality men and low quality relationship. Maybe improving your own life and your self esteem will get you better men (nothing to do wuth looks)

You long distance dated married man for 3 years, dating is a stretch here as you always had to beg him to see you. But he was married. Then he took another two years to get divorced. Before he even got divorced he broke up wuth you and ended engagement.

Year later you still claim to be engaged and keep begging for him to see you. You are willing to put up wuth him ghosting you for a month. He treats you poorly and plays games and you send him a message that you have no self respect by begging him.

Start respecting yourself. I understand you want to reconcile but it takes two. If a man wants you, nothing will stop him. And if he respects you, he’d treat you well. He has no respect for you. You are starved for his love but he shows you none. He just says things.

Why oh why you keep pursuing him?