I hope you have a nice christmas and enjoy what you can of it.
honestly for me, because I don't have any family to celebrate with, the holidays are nothing special- I'll maybe put up a few decorations, cook myself a turkey, buy myself a few gifts from amazon (yes I know, it's sad buying my own presents), and that is usually that

as for bad memories of christmas, their was one year where I was in hospital over the holidays and I actually



it obviously didn't work, because I'm here now- but I came so close, the nurses thought I'd not survive the night.

and as for new year, well, I'll cross that bridge when I come to it. I usually dread new year- it gives me the perfect excuse to look back on the last 12 month and think, wow, nothing's changed, I'm still a mess- and it's a big guilt trip from start to end