Thats' ok. But I think we may need to add a trigger warning here. When I wake up, I feel refreshed and sometimes need a cup of coffee to motivate my body, but my mind is awake. Are you taking medications? Has your relationship with your partner moved passed the point of verbal communication.

I highly recommend finding a way to speak with your OBGYN, even if just to visit and say you had sex and leave out the personal backstory. But if your mind was not present, you might also consider speaking to a psychologist, a psychiatrist or seeking a therapist to work with. I am sorry I can't be of more help here. Talk to your current doctor and see what they offer. I also recommend working on your relationship with your partner and researching domestic violence. Yes, I agree, this subject is a little awkward