Today and yesterday, I woke up at 4 a.m. Then I couldn't go back to sleep. I'm jittery now from the Ritalin I took this morning at 9 a.m.

I'm not depressed. That's big. I just have to get things done, and I will feel okay. I have a written list. Otherwise, I get disorganized.

My left heel pain is back. That hobbled me a bit. My bf is sleeping so much. He has gotten weaker lately. We both feel better in the evening. Our Christmas decorations are up. I'm happy about feeling ready for Christmas. Did my main shopping already.

I have to tell myself that I'm doing okay. I get this jittery, anxious feeling that I am behind on what I have to do (which I am) and that I'm going to be in some bad jam soon. I have to calm down and just move along with doing what I can.