I'm so sorry, sinking. What do you usually like to do in your free time? Maybe that could help. Starting from your hobbies may be a start. Please remember that your life is worth living, even if you can't see it at the moment. I hope you'll feel better soon. Hopefully one day you'll be able to find a little bit of joy in your life. Please don't give up. Stay safe and take care of yourself. Sending many hugs to you