Trigger Warning

I have come to an end in my 3.5 years struggle to make peace with my wife, and lost all hope. I have lost hope in living this life anymore. My coworkers noticed that I was suicidal, and my therapist also figured it out from an SMS I have sent. I was also bleeding my wrist.

Both my pDoc and T communicated, intervened and said I better go inpatient. I was mostly sleeping and not so alert last weekend. Monday I got admitted with a letter from my pDoc.

My sister warned me of ECT. But I was in a state of mind open to any treatment that would clear up my mind. Somehow that was not needed.

This was my first time in psych ward. Only today I got back on leave. Monday I'm supposed to check back in.