Wish I could afford therapy, unfortunately the only insurance I can afford has a nearly 5 digit deductible before it pays anything.

My main escape is video games. Healthier than alcohol or drugs to be sure, but I still see it as much as a way to numb the pain, as much as a fun hobby.

Just seems like life keeps piling on lately. But even when things are well I'm uneasy, waiting for the inevitable trouble to come. Probably another leftover of my childhood.