The bad thing I did in 2010, I did it again 5 years later, though I didn't take it so far so it turned out OK. Well nowhere near as bad as the first time. I'm always beating myself up about it. Would have been bad enough if I'd only done it once, but to try again, knowing full well what would happen, that was just stupid. But it's in the past, nothing I can do about it. Can't change the past, the damage is done now and I have to accept that, forgive myself and move on.

Also there is another person I'm struggling to forgive and move on from, because he is still around. I don't want to talk about what happened, and really it wasn't "to me" but it has affected me very negatively. He caused the problems I have today, although it was my own fault for letting this spiral out of control.