I'm having a really hard time with anxiety, in particularly social anxiety but am treated for GAD with panic attacks.

I just cant get a hold of it. I meditate, exercise, eat right, I'm on meds, I journal.

I can't take it anymore!!! I have 0 friends. I'm a mum of 3 and I dont have one adult friend or any family. Im just so lonely it physically hurts... i have my children, but they are young and usually act like they hate me so it doesnt always help with the persitant loneliness. Lol

My therapist said I'm afraid of friendships due to past abuse, but that's it's okay and I dont have to change..

But I want to change. I'm depressed living this way and i want to have a friend so badly.

Is anybody else in the same boat? It physically hurts deep in my chest when I want to do something or go somewhere and I just don't have company.

I'm just venting and sad