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I am so sorry that happened to you Só leigheas. It was not your fault. You deserved peace and safety and love that day just as much as you do now. I have not experienced rape but several friends shared their stories with me. And of course, I realize that every survivor's story is unique.

I think that sharing your truth, when you feel ready and able, could be an important part of healing. Thank you for sharing your truth here on PC. If you change your mind about being open, that is okay too. You set your own time, pacing, and method for healing. Can you trust this information with a therapist for 1:1 support?

It is okay to "feel like a child half the time." I would think maybe your frightened inner child is communicating with your adult self...asking for your help. No shame in that.

You are not alone though I understand why you feel that way. I admire your courage and ability to survive through harrowing circumstances.

Again, I am so very sorry that happened to you