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Dec 24, 2018 at 02:08 AM
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Originally Posted by Só leigheas
This is the second hardest forum for me to post/respond in. The first is SoA for obvious reasons.
I come here and I read, very rarely do I leave any trace that I've been around. I read something that relates to me and I say, "I don't talk about that" and I leave the forum entirely. Once I leave, I don't come back around for a while. Once I come back, the same story repeats itself. Kinda sucks since, out of every forum, I need to talk here the most for a couple reasons. One, where else can I talk about this stuff? Two, who else but those here will understand what I have to say?
Still, I can't bring myself to speak. I can't bring myself to admit things I'm sure happened, and I deny things that have no witnesses because denial is easier. I feel that statement is admission that I know it's real. But I don't. I don't know if it's real. I don't know if anything at all in my life is real. I'm so ****ing confused all of the time. I just want some clarity. More than that, I want my mind to know peace. I just want to know peace.
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Sounds like you've been the victim of an expert gaslighter.
One day I decided I was going to know what I know and remember what I remember. Ain't nobody can tell me what happened was nothing at all. It was more than I could handle and still amazes me. It was real. They don't want you to really know what happened to you because they want to get away with it, you know.
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