Wow sinking that is tough. What did your mom say? There is nothing wrong with needing more help than a sibling. I have three kids: 22,18,15. They all require different types of help. When my 15 year old was 11 she was hospitalized for suicidal thoughts. Last March the 18 year old ran away and got involved in drugs and alcohol(sober house now) and on Black Friday my 22 year old son had a stroke, if you can believe it and had to have a PFO repair of his heart. I am sure each one of them would have said they didnt get enough from me or their Dad at one point or another. My point is, sometimes our kids, especially sensitive ones need more from us and that's ok. Its Ok that you needed more from your mom. Its ok that you are envious of your brother. Envy tends to be born out of the desire to do what others seem to do easily.