I am a huge believer in positive thoughts (since I got sober). I used to be more insecure and feel envious or even jealousy. I got married when I was 20 and even though my husband and I are besties, back then I had some minor episodes of envy or jealousy. I used to look at my brother as the "golden child" and that he had it better than me. My mom divorced my d* khead dad but it turns out his d*ckhead dad was no better. He is settled in his career now and bought a big beautiful hours. I have 5 people living in a really small house. But you know what? My house predates George Washington. Its over 240 years old. My 22 year old survived a stroke and my daughter made it out of rehab. I got sober 6 years ago without having seizures and I am very lucky to be married to the best guy for 23 years. None of these things would be appreciated if I felt envy.