Yes I go right back there to the way I must have felt when I was, say, 9. But now I'm 62 and think Holy cow, this is no way for a 9 year old to have to experience life, but I guess that's how I felt. Really cruel to put a little kid through what I went through, and the feelings are alive and well in me. Like yesterday, I was in a really bad day-long flashback, and I don't remember yesterday at all, hardly. I must have been blanked out.