Sounds to me like you are a highly intuitive person and maybe have grown a small set of wings to satisfy your need for compassion and harmony. Your warm traits are most likely accepted and appreciated by most, so I am sorry if you are feeling unfulfilled possibly bc many are unable to return how forthcoming you are.

Currently, I struggle with a similar problem where I allow myself to explore both sides of a dime. You might consider this overindulging in a simple object, making it more complex than it is. Which I find to be okay bc I allow this to happen over a course of time. I don't let myself get hung up on it, but I do fixate on something until it make sense to me. This type of behavior can easily get out of hand. Shielding intrusive thoughts in public places also is a concern for me, so I tend to avoid going out when I know I won't be comfortable. All in all, facts are more telling than guessing so when in doubt, trust your instincts and continue to explore.