I'm angry about the abandonment thing. Again.
Rationally I understand that you taking a few weeks off isn't abandonment. But I'm alone with my feelings and it hurts and I need you and you're not here.

And the last session was a lot of emotional intensity and I'm feeling and processing so many things. And I'm having to do it alone. What were you thinking??

And I can't accept the compassion and emotional intimacy, so now I'm going to be angry at you instead of vulnerable. I need to push you away. But instead of being able to talk it over before I can completely convince myself of these awful things, I'm stuck with these awful thoughts that feel more and more believable every day.