I'm ill so this might be feverish, medicated nonsense, but I'm so sad, I feel so alone. So much seems to be happening and half of it I haven't even been able to tell u.
So I'm laying here cos I can't do much else, and I'm thinking about how different it was this time last year. We were on a break then aswell, but I felt secure with u and happy with how this was going, I felt close and that I had u on my side and with u there I could accomplish life, roll on a year, u leaving me, alone, no contact, nothing! Telling me to reach to another T for support, how do I even do that. Firstly the relationship with u took many months to form, and secondly I don't trust in therapy or therapists anymore cos look where that's got me.