I've looked a little bit, but can't find any meetings anywhere locally so far. I'll keep looking and maybe check into therapy. I've spoken to therapists/counselors a few times before (when Dad was still alive) but didn't find it very helpful. I'm on Lexapro which works pretty well. But I can feel myself going downhill since he died. And I just can't shake the feeling that the way I feel now is just how it's got to be, that there's no "fixing" me.