Ayeee

So I have been diagnosed with depression and have been put on Zoloft for the past year and a half. I have been feeling empty and like I am out of touch with reality. I feels like I have a barrier all around me and when something happens to me I have no reaction to it. I have been drinking on the weekends a lot, to just feel something. I don't know if I'm feeling this empty from the Zoloft or not (I am on a higher dose). I know what's real and what's not, and it is not multiple personality disorder. I'm just looking for resources and advice.

Thanks!