This is not a suicide post, but an explanation for why I don't plan on posting on these forums anymore.

It really comes down to the fact that when I've made posts recently, I've been too afraid to read any replies. This is supposed to be a safe site, but my anxious mind still manages to turn it into a dangerous place. A few days ago, I once again made a post and was then too scared to read any replies, so if anybody was wondering why I never left a "Thank You" to their posts, it's because I did not and can not read them. And really, if I'm not brave enough to read the replies, why post at all?

I'll continue living, and maybe one day I'll come back, but that remains to be seen. I wish the members of this site well, but sadly I currently don't feel safe even here. And so, on the New Year's Eve of 2018, I take my leave.