Be gentle on yourself
The weather is going to do what the weather is going to do. I'm sure your gram wouldn't want to think of you in harms way. I wanted to see mine on Friday but it was an icy mess and my kids sleep schedules radically changed over this last weekend of vacation. Back in November with a gallbladder infection diagnosis things got a bit heightened over everyone feeling like it was time to see her asap. Her being the fighter she is, battled off that infection and has made it through the holidays. If my last moment to see her was my last, I'll be at peace. And if there's more moments to come, I will cherish those.
It's tough to know the final stages are here and that it is a matter of time.
Finding peace in the matter is what matters.