I am better, feelings came back a little. Being so empty is scary, when literaly don't know who you are and how to react. You are just trying to have some human interation but everything sounds absurd. And you cry and yell and laugh in a matter of instances, and you feel like you are going insane and there is anything you can:t hold to. It's pretty scary.
And you cry and say personal things around people you don't want to say those things to, but you just don't know.
And my brain don't think, it's stucked, it's completly caugh in the moment. And you try to use thoughts and you try to feel and all you get is and headache.
I don't want to be in this place. Total dissociation, lack of focus and concentration. It is so terrible. It is like being blind and with my ears muffed, lost inside a room.