It's perfectly understandable to feel down while prepping for surgery...it is a major event in your life and it's logical that it would affect your emotions. What's your expected recovery time? Is your MD kind?

I certainly would not judge anyone's level or type of depression..."major" or otherwise. Everyone needs and deserves support and understanding in life. I hear you regarding needing to be the strong one for your son. I imagine that must be very challenging particularly during times when you need some extra nurturing for yourself. May I ask if you are married or partnered? If so, does your S.O. understand?

Any in-person support groups in your area? Or you prefer something anonymous? Are you open to speaking with a therapist...even just to get you through this surgical recovery? Somewhere along my random travels here on PC, I saw a member who identified as living with dysthymia. I cannot recall their name but if I find that post again I will send it to you if you'd like.

What brings you comfort Monticello? Big or small.