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Originally Posted by cryingontheinside
Is this stuff related to my bpd and depression or is it because I'm a bad lazy piece of **** ?
I have insomnia
I have no energy
I can barely function ie self care or doing anything productive
I am impulsive with spending
I have agoraphobia and social phobia
These random thoughts pop into my head telling me bad things . usually telling me bad things about myself and sometomes telling me to hurt people ( don't judge me , these are not thoughts i choose or listen to or want going round in my head )
I constantly worry and analyze everything to the point of paranoia
Sometimes i snap and the people i love the most which follows by immense guilt and self hatred and then i apologize
Does any of this sound familiar or make any sense to anyone ? Does it sound like bpd?
Im confused . i have no self asteem .
Nobody likes me and im alone and isolated .
This is not a life worth living . i often feel suicidal . i have self harmed but not recently
Im scared of confrontations
I think i know what people are tginking about me
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That all sounds so familiar...I think that sounds very much like BPD.
I understand and feel these intrusive thoughts and feelings almost all the time.
Have you tried therapy before? DBT and Schema Therapy are effective therapies for the things that you've mentioned.
What are your thoughts about being diagnosed by a clinical psychologist or psychiatrist?
I haven't been officially diagnosed but I have traits of BPD and may possibly have BPD. I'm in Schema Therapy now for a little over two months but on a month and a half long break now due to my therapist needing a much needed break.
Check this out when you've got some time. Or just try looking up Schema Therapy if this website isn't conclusive enough.
anyway, here it is:
Schema Theory