Hi
I get this now, sadly. I lost my T 3 weeks ago. I've had sexual dreams since and constant thoughts during the day, feelings of frustration and anger to longing to talk again etc.
I have tried being social, actually gone out quite a bit with people and even have a new job where I have to talk to people but it doesnt help. Every single person I am mentally comparing to him and none of them are enough for me. I want him and no one else.
I'm sure in time, the intensity will lessen but I think for at least 2 yrs (When I'm allowed to reach out again) I will think of him often... and the sucky part is, I know that he never thinks of me and has already moved on.
It's hard because I believed we had a real connection and he admitted to feeling one too, but then easily just walked away like I'm nothing.
Anyway, I'm sorry you are still dealing with this