I would like to change my social habits, but don’t know where to start. I say that I am distance (correction distant) from others, and at times I also feel so distant from myself. I keep many interests, I rarely find time to merge them together into something productive. Maybe what I am seeking here, on PC, is the inspiration to be my own muse. Maybe to not feel so alone, but I insist on keeping my mind active (as lazy as I am).

From the beginning. (sorry if my writing is confusing)

My goals for 2019. Exploration of self through depravity, fulfillment and structure. No longer dependent on another (if that is possible), and in recourse. I ask the question “is this gift for me?”, because so many times in my life I have been given a gift that I did not know how to accept but accepted anyway (or didn’t). Today, my family offers me things and advice I do not want. Will I ever be at home with myself?

One small panic attack today. was able to work through. thanks for listening