Oh no. Not more sad. I appreciate your kindness very much. But I also feel a deep sense of sadness that you feel the same way I do. It’s hard to live your life feeling unwanted, unworthy and like an outsider. I keep myself very busy because otherwise I have too much time on my hands to think. These days I feel happiest when I can get outside for walks and when I can do my volunteer work. Every thing else feels empty. I have no real family except hubby. I feel I have failed.