I found a therapist online because mental health professionals are basically almost non existent to be entirely honest.

So maybe that's an option for you to consider in the future.

My therapist lives in the UK. and i've found several others that do online therapy who specialize in DBT and/or Schema Therapy. Some are quite expensive and some are average. Some therapists charge 180-200 pounds an hour its insane.. It makes one think about the poor and underprivileged in our society and their chances with improvement. F****** sad.

But yeah.. I hope you can get some relief and some progress. All the best to you. And let me know if you want some pointers or some contacts.